tamchronin: (Inara)
Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Please post them in your journal and explain what they mean to you.

CCS - Writing fanfic for CCS made me grow up, as a writer. It helped me understand that it takes work to be noticed, and to stay noticed. It gave me a thicker skin, and a broader understanding of writing for others and writing for myself. More than that, though, the series itself touched me. It brought me into anime and manga, and it changed how I think and who I am.

motherhood - Oh, what a scary, wonderful, HUGE word! I didn't want to be a mother, at all, ever, until I was 23. I was certain I would be too terrible at it, and I didn't want to screw up another innocent human being the way I had been. At 23, I realized that that fear might actually make me a better mother than I was afraid of being. It's served me well. Yeah, I'm probably screwing Anakin's life up even as you read this, but I'm not dating child molesters or molesting or beating him, so I figure I've beat the odds as long as I love him and fear ruining his life.

college - I start online classes on the 24th. It's pretty intimidating. I had a dream last night that they made you follow mazes to the right answer and other gimmicks to make sure you're actually the one doing the answers or something. I'm hopeful, but also filled with apprehension. I'm at the mercy of my family and feel pretty powerless...but this is the first step in having my own power and responsibility again, and I hope it's a good example to my son.

determination - It's amazing how much "no viable choice" looks like determination from the outside. Yes, I keep walking forward, but sometimes it's baby steps, and sometimes there are days when I just stare straight ahead and say I'm walking forward in my heart when I know I'm standing still. And maybe, just maybe, from the outside it looks like I have all kinds of excuses to give up and sit down and let myself fail...but from the inside, I have no choice. No alternative. I hope I never do, no matter how hard it is. The thing I'm most determined to do is not to let my chronic depression destroy my life. Literally. Some days it tries to trick me and tell me that Anakin would be better off if I'd just die. And I hang on by my nails, pushing forward, because I'm happily too scared to ruin his life by letting depression ruin mine.

writing - When I was little, I was told I was going to be a famous singer. My grandmother had had some sort of prophetic dream before I was born, and as soon as I showed any hint of talent for music I was pushed in that direction. For the longest time I thought that I was fated for music, it was meant to be, and I didn't have a choice. But, writing is my choice. Writing is my escape from fate and the expectations and control of my family. Writing is my independence, and my way of being me, for me, because I'm me and not an extension of my childhood.
tamchronin: (I am a leaf on the wind - Firefly)
Keeping this short, because my right wrist is in bad shape today and I'm (mostly) keeping off the keyboard to give it time to recover.

Yesterday, day 6:
Free lunch, even if I had to put up with my mother and downtown Phoenix for it.

Day 7:
Realizing that I'm proud of the writing skill I've gained by listening to all the feedback and criticism I've received over the years. I keep learning, and growing, and I've come to actually like what I write. ^_^

(Going now...because OWIE!)
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (Shavra)
Day four:
Being able to raid with people I really care about for a change. Not saying I don't care about my guildies, but it's nicer to raid with people you know in real life, especially when it's a rare treat. ♥
tamchronin: (I am a leaf on the wind - Firefly)
Day Three:
Ghost puppies make me happy. So happy, I might keep Shavra enh at 80. (Yes, another WoW happy, sorry.)
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (Default)
Day 2:

I have laryngitis. Okay, that shouldn't make me happy. But, it makes me happy that it's a) not strep throat and b) MY VOICE SOUNDING FUNNY GIVES ME GIGGLES LIKE MAD.


If I have to be sick, I want laryngitis. Of all the germs Anakin could bring home from school with him, this is the funnest.

(Yeah, my throat hurts, and I've had a fever off and on the last few days, but FUNNY VOICE! Woot!)
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1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this every day for a week without fail.
3. Tag 8 of your friends to do the same.

Day 1: So far, this is what's really made me happy. It makes me want to level one of my hunters. (I'm WoW-geeking today. Deal with it. lol)

Tagging...uh... (This is hard. I'm out of practice on tagging people.) [livejournal.com profile] obsessed1, [livejournal.com profile] tyasante, [livejournal.com profile] jupiter_star, [livejournal.com profile] desert_dragon42, [livejournal.com profile] silentrequiem, [livejournal.com profile] uminohikari, [livejournal.com profile] twilightspirit, and [livejournal.com profile] smalltimejazz.

Come on. We all need a reason to be reminded of something happy for a week. Spread the joy.

And, I'd like to add, THANK YOU to everyone who replied to my last entry. It meant a lot to me. The depression isn't gone yet, but...it's a little more manageable. It comes and goes...and it hardly ever actually goes when I'm sick. Stupid second cold in one month...grrrr...
tamchronin: (Szark - lessons)
Name That Element

I got a better score than my geeky little brother. I was shocked I remembered that much, after so long! But, I always loved science, and chemistry would have rocked my world if it weren't for all the math. haha

In other news, the writing has slowed down to a crawl again. I hate how it comes in unreliable bursts these days. I wonder if I can change that...
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When we role-play, we tend to pick up a variety of characters. They could be ones that we like, ones that we want to experiment with, or ones that we just end up making from scratch. Eventually, we come to associate with (some of) them in one way or another. Out of all the characters (past or present) I role-play, pick out the one I am most like and tell me why you think so.

Not that I RP a whole lot lately, but I've RPed with enough people on my friends list that I'm curious now. ^_^

(off topic-I'm almost done with Generations. Why is it so hard to just finish it and move on?)
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I stole this from Dr. Meg. I should be writing my daily fic for the advent calendar, but it's not coming to me so have this to tide you over. XD

Comment and I will....

a) Tell you why I friended you.

b) Associate you with something -- a fandom, song, color, photo, etc.

c) Tell you something I like about you.

d) Tell you a memory I have of you.

e) Ask you something I've wanted to know about you

f) Tell you my favourite userpic from your list

g) In return, you could post this on your own LJ.

Answer key

Feb. 17th, 2008 07:42 pm
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (best Fuji icon ever!)
Aha! Finally, all movies have been guessed!

Great job, everyone. You may now commence kicking yourself for the ones you should have known but didn't. ^_~

1. Chasing Amy
2. The Road to El Dorado
3. American Beauty
4. The Lion in Winter
5. A Knight's Tale
6. Star Wars: Return of the Jedi
7. The Last Starfighter
8. The Lost Boys
9. Star Trek: First Contact
10. The Last Unicorn
11. Serenity
12. Monsters Inc.
13. Spaceballs
14. Hook
15. Titan AE

YAY! It was fun for me, and I hope it was fun for you. ^_^ You may now shower praise upon me for how clever I am. Or...throw rotten tomatoes for making it harder than it should have been. (Probably the latter. LOL)
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (politics)
A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

1. When I'm stuck on what to write, I run my fingers through my hair. I then shake off any stray hairs onto the floor around me. The vacuum cleaner HATES me when I'm writing.

2. My blind eye wanders when I'm sick, stressed, or sleepy. My dad swears it would wander when I was lying, but I think he said that to scare me. Most of the time, though, it tracks normally or just a little off, so people might think there's something a little odd about my eyes, but they can't tell it's blind.

3. I "mew" at people, IRL. I've been doing it for years, since before Anakin was born. Yes, folks, it's not just a "cutsie" thing I do over IM. No, I didn't pick it up from any of you. Hell, when [livejournal.com profile] bigbadwolfcub and I started dating, we'd "mew" at each other in the store, in front of people, and realize belatedly that maybe they had a *reason* to look at us funny...

4. I can't sleep if anything is covering my face, and I HATE it if someone breathes in my face. I don't care how sweet their breath is, or how much I love them, I can't handle it. I feel like I'm suffocating. =/

5. My habit of ALWAYS and OBSESSIVELY checking the scale on my way out the bathroom only stopped when we stopped having a scale. Even when the scale at the last place I lived that had one was broken, I'd keep trying.

6. On the rare occasions that I draw, I usually start people with the eyes. Sometimes I start with the shape of the face, but it's usually the eyes.

7. I am a pretty oblivious person, most of the time. You could insult me to my face, and I won't realize I've been insulted until someone points it out to me. Then I'm embarrassed that I was oblivious as well angry at being insulted. I'm just as oblivious to being flirted with, of course. My mind is just on a million other things at once, and what's right in front of my face is somehow not as immediate as it is to most people. I've been told I'm a genius, but sometimes I'm also a real idiot.

Tagging [livejournal.com profile] twilightspirit, [livejournal.com profile] rufustehshinra, [livejournal.com profile] dragonnette, [livejournal.com profile] jupiter_star, [livejournal.com profile] smuxis, [livejournal.com profile] graymm, and [livejournal.com profile] slytherinblack.
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (The rest is silence - SW)
1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDB search functions.

To be nice, I'm going to screen comments so everyone can keep guessing. ^_^

This should be a piece of cake, since I'm such a simple person. hehe )
tamchronin: (Hermione - brown nosing know it all)
"IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine ... You're on my list, so I want to know you better!


Cut for your sanity and mine. )
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (Well this sucks - SW)
And, to balance the, er, seriousness of my last post...I bring you a silly waste of time. ^_^

Who comments the most on this journal? )
tamchronin: coctail umbrella captioned "pretty but pretty useless" (HP - collector's item)
Comment, and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

[livejournal.com profile] ywingempress bestowed upon me the letter R.

1. Rain
2. Rainbows
3. Roses
4. Rings
5. Rayearth (even though I still don't know how the second season/series ends! Aaaahhh!!!)
6. Rare Truffle cosplay! XD
7. Riku (~purr~ ~pause~ When he grows up, of course. >>)
8. Resting when I'm tired
9. RPGs
10. Reading! (duh)


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