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Elemental has slowed to a crawl. Fanfics are on the back burner. The urge to edit/rewrite Legacy of the Fae is rising. We'll see what comes of it.
I didn't expect a lot in the way of feedback on my fanfic chapters,but I'm still a bit sad that I didn't get anything at all. I brought it on myself, though.
Actually, I *really* want to work on the ending of Riding the Wave right now. Maybe I'll do that over the next couple of days. It's such a fun story, and I'd hate to see it unfinished.
That might be one thing that's got me holding back right now. Fanfic. I noticed that one friend of mine who is professionally published right now pulled all of her fanfics from all fanfic archives. I have no idea if she did that before or after she got an agent. No idea if she did that in a fit of depression (when she deleted her LJ, too) or if it was because as a professional she couldn't have any of it up anymore.
I don't want to pull all of my fanfics. I know I don't get the readers I used to, because I was inactive so long, but I know I still have people reading. I don't want to disappoint the people who enjoyed those stories. Writing isn't about money for me. It's about sharing my ideas. It would be *nice* to be able to make a living from it some day, but that's not what would drive me. I write because I have stories in my head that want to be told.
So maybe that's it. Maybe that's something that's been holding me back. Maybe I'm a little afraid of success, because that means I'll have new limits. I don't know. I'll think about it.
eta: Okay, I stuck my foot in my mouth. I did get feedback on Zettai Daijobu, I just didn't check the right email account before I posted this. I *do* feel better. I feel bad about Riding the Wave, but I feel worlds better about writing in general. Though...the part about what's holding me back on Elemental right now still stands.
I didn't expect a lot in the way of feedback on my fanfic chapters,
Actually, I *really* want to work on the ending of Riding the Wave right now. Maybe I'll do that over the next couple of days. It's such a fun story, and I'd hate to see it unfinished.
That might be one thing that's got me holding back right now. Fanfic. I noticed that one friend of mine who is professionally published right now pulled all of her fanfics from all fanfic archives. I have no idea if she did that before or after she got an agent. No idea if she did that in a fit of depression (when she deleted her LJ, too) or if it was because as a professional she couldn't have any of it up anymore.
I don't want to pull all of my fanfics. I know I don't get the readers I used to, because I was inactive so long, but I know I still have people reading. I don't want to disappoint the people who enjoyed those stories. Writing isn't about money for me. It's about sharing my ideas. It would be *nice* to be able to make a living from it some day, but that's not what would drive me. I write because I have stories in my head that want to be told.
So maybe that's it. Maybe that's something that's been holding me back. Maybe I'm a little afraid of success, because that means I'll have new limits. I don't know. I'll think about it.
eta: Okay, I stuck my foot in my mouth. I did get feedback on Zettai Daijobu, I just didn't check the right email account before I posted this. I *do* feel better. I feel bad about Riding the Wave, but I feel worlds better about writing in general. Though...the part about what's holding me back on Elemental right now still stands.
